i have to be honest on a few things. for like the whole entire past month my jealousy meter has been throough the fuckin roof cause like i worked long and hard for something i didnt get and then some other nigga comes in and a week later he gets it all. i had to work hard as fuck for u to tell me like 4 times that you lovedme reluctantly and a week after knowing this nigga you just willingly say these words. i can read. "this guy is amazing <3" is the reason i gave up. cause i was fucking tired of having to compete with other niggas. first was travis, i aint even know about him till he blew ur life by turning u away, then that nigga josh, it took him standing u up to get rid of him. after that i thought i was in the clear, finally i had you all to myself, but no. then this nigga cameron came in the picture and on the first day you know him, he's "amazing". in 4 months you never told me i was amazing. so that was it, i was done. i could not do it anymore. and u say the diff. between me and him is he trusts you and knows your comin home to him. well how am i supposed to feel secure when i'm constantly reminded that i'm not ur bf or when u tell me some other nigga has plans for yall and i ask "wut u gonna do?" you tell me "idk im gonna see wut happens" i look back on it and i dont wanna say it was a waste of my time but it really was. cause as hard as i worked for u, i never really had you, and if i did have you and the trust thing was a fuckin issue, then why not reassure me rather than say shit like " this is pointless" or "what r u gonna do about it" wtf is that forreal? its bullshit. and i cant hold any of this any longer. i gotta let it go. so here it is, i said it. u wanna discuss it , we can later